Yes, I know it’s the default, but it is appropriate!
I’ve had a go at blogging before, but the posts were pretty angry, so they’ve been trashed… and thought to start again.
Since November I have been seeing a trauma counselor, and just the other day she called her methodology Somatic Mindfulness. I hadn’t really heard of mindfulness before I started seeing her but it appears it’s the new best thing since sliced bread.
All I now know is that this is the hardest things I have done in my life. Ever. To date. So now it’s time to start journalling it, well, I now want to anyway. And since what my counselor is doing is pretty bleeding edge, I thought it might prove a use beyond just my own dribblings for my own sake to someone else out there!
So, here it is! And I guess I should start with some background, and then move on to day to day feelings about how things are going for me.
And the God bit?
Because this is proving to be so incredibly hard, I thought if I brought my bestest buddy in to support me (even though I am not willing to open up to said bestest buddy just yet) I would get through this. Because I don’t think I could have without my divine parent. (Still hanging onto the masculine there as I am still having a hard time with the mum stuff, but working on it.)
That’s it for now, shall update more soon hopefully (and hopefully it won’t be three years till the next update!)